In response to the debate going on in the USA Supreme court as well as the court of the public forum about homosexuality I want to re-post this post.
Reprinted from Original post by Hunter Baker
Please Read the whole letter to Understand
To the churches concerning homosexuals and lesbians:
Many of you believe that we do not exist within your walls, your schools, your neighborhoods. You believe that we are few and easily recognized. I tell you we are many. We are your teachers, doctors, accountants, high school athletes. We are all colors, shapes, sizes. We are single, married, mothers, fathers. We are your sons, your daughters, your nieces, your nephews, your grandchildren. We are in your Sunday School classes, pews, choirs, and pulpits. You choose not to see us out of ignorance or because it might upset your congregation. We ARE your congregation. We enter your doors weekly seeking guidance and some glimmer of hope that we can change. Like you, we have invited Jesus into our hearts. Like you, we want to be all that Christ wants us to be. Like you, we pray daily for guidance. Like you, we often fail.
When the word “homosexual” is mentioned in the church, we hold our breaths and sit in fear. Most often this word is followed with condemnation, laughter, hatred, or jokes. Rarely do we hear any words of hope. At least we recognize our sin. Does the church as a whole see theirs? Do you see the sin of pride, that you are better than or more acceptable to Jesus than we are? Have you been Christ-like in your relationships with us? Would you meet us at the well, or restaurant, for a cup of water, or coffee? Would you touch us even if we showed signs of leprosy, or aids? Would you call us down from our trees, as Christ did Zacchaeus, and invite yourself to be our guest? Would you allow us to sit at your table and break bread? Can you love us unconditionally and support us as Christ works in our lives, as He works in yours, to help us all to overcome?
To those of you who would change the church to accept the gay community and its lifestyle: you give us no hope at all. To those of us who know God’s word and will not dilute it to fit our desires, we ask you to read John’s letter to the church in Pergamum. “I have a few things against you: You have people there who hold to the teaching of Balaam, who taught Balak to entice the Israelites to sin by eating food sacrificed to idols and by committing sexual immorality. Likewise, you also have those who hold to the teaching of the Nicolaitans. Repent therefore!” You are willing to compromise the word of God to be politically correct. We are not deceived. If we accept your willingness to compromise, then we must also compromise. We must therefore accept your lying, your adultery, your lust, your idolatry, your addictions, YOUR sins. “He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches.”
We do not ask for your acceptance of our sins any more than we accept yours. We simply ask for the same support, love, guidance, and most of all hope that is given to the rest of your congregation. We are your brothers and sisters in Christ. We are not what we shall be, but thank God, we are not what we were. Let us work together to see that we all arrive safely home.
A Sister in Christ
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Friday, January 6, 2012
Christians: Haters of All Mankind? Part 3
This is the last post in this series. And this one is a story, story about me, of all people, on my way to church Monday 1/2/12 for the bible study that started this whole series.
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I had just finished dinner and looked at the clock, it told me I had about 2.5 hours till the College and Career group meeting started and so I had about 2 hours give or take before i had to leave. this gave me a chance to change out of my pj's I was wearing all day, take a shower and maybe even read more of my current reading choice.
Time flew by as i accomplished all my goals. I grabbed my bible, my journal for notes, my current reading selection, coat and then proceed to check, keys, cell, i-pod, and we are good.
The drive was good, not too much traffic seeing it was the day after New Years and many people had off or took off because *cough, cough* they were sick. so as I chug down Route 1 to church in my 2000 Ford Station wagon jamming to Needtobreathe on my i-pod I start thinking about the day,what the New Year holds and just how life is going to unfold.
"Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get." is a small bit of truth from the good old movie Forrest Gump. Well, this is a bit of truth that i should live by because of what happened as I neared the church.
As i pulled up to the traffic light, waiting to cross the road to get to church. As I came to a complete stop I notice the man who had just crossed the street to the Right of my car. At first I didn't take to much attention to him because there is a convenience store on that corner as well as a bus stop and Train Station to my left.
But as I sat there waiting I noticed he was not moving fast, he had a cart and a crutch. Then I noticed why he was moving slow on this cold night and had a crutch his one foot was badly out of place. He was walking on a ankle and the side of the foot on one side.
My heart broke, and I wanted to offer him a ride to where he needed to go. Then fear crept in. I started debating back and forth about being on time, what if he has a knife, what about my stuff, WWJD, How am I going to be able to stop in the middle of a busy road, and its so cold out...
Then the light Turned green and I went to church. Still debating to myself I find a parking spot and go in. I realize I am really early due to the lack of traffic. We pray for the night and have our study.
During the study of God is love we have a group discussion on what is love? One guy points out we are to love the homeless, the orphan, the widow, etc. and my stomach swallows my heart and ties itself into knots. I know this I have done street ministry before, I care but when I feel safe.
I was wrong, I could have helped the man but I didn't, I am still working on my Love for Others as I am working on my Love for God. So I also need to practice what I teach, Love the lost even the ones you don't know.
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I had just finished dinner and looked at the clock, it told me I had about 2.5 hours till the College and Career group meeting started and so I had about 2 hours give or take before i had to leave. this gave me a chance to change out of my pj's I was wearing all day, take a shower and maybe even read more of my current reading choice.
Time flew by as i accomplished all my goals. I grabbed my bible, my journal for notes, my current reading selection, coat and then proceed to check, keys, cell, i-pod, and we are good.
The drive was good, not too much traffic seeing it was the day after New Years and many people had off or took off because *cough, cough* they were sick. so as I chug down Route 1 to church in my 2000 Ford Station wagon jamming to Needtobreathe on my i-pod I start thinking about the day,what the New Year holds and just how life is going to unfold.
"Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get." is a small bit of truth from the good old movie Forrest Gump. Well, this is a bit of truth that i should live by because of what happened as I neared the church.
As i pulled up to the traffic light, waiting to cross the road to get to church. As I came to a complete stop I notice the man who had just crossed the street to the Right of my car. At first I didn't take to much attention to him because there is a convenience store on that corner as well as a bus stop and Train Station to my left.
But as I sat there waiting I noticed he was not moving fast, he had a cart and a crutch. Then I noticed why he was moving slow on this cold night and had a crutch his one foot was badly out of place. He was walking on a ankle and the side of the foot on one side.
My heart broke, and I wanted to offer him a ride to where he needed to go. Then fear crept in. I started debating back and forth about being on time, what if he has a knife, what about my stuff, WWJD, How am I going to be able to stop in the middle of a busy road, and its so cold out...
Then the light Turned green and I went to church. Still debating to myself I find a parking spot and go in. I realize I am really early due to the lack of traffic. We pray for the night and have our study.
During the study of God is love we have a group discussion on what is love? One guy points out we are to love the homeless, the orphan, the widow, etc. and my stomach swallows my heart and ties itself into knots. I know this I have done street ministry before, I care but when I feel safe.
I was wrong, I could have helped the man but I didn't, I am still working on my Love for Others as I am working on my Love for God. So I also need to practice what I teach, Love the lost even the ones you don't know.
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Christians: Haters of All Mankind? Part 2
In the first post we looked at Love and what love is according to well the culture and the Bible. But I want to expand on what I said earlier about Judgement.
People always say, "Don't Judge ME! Don't attack me, my beliefs, thoughts, who I am!" because they do not like to be burned. No one like to put out themselves their true self out there only to be squashed by judgmental, sarcastic people. They do not like being judged because in reality they do not want to be condemned to be on the outside looking in, condemned to be a loser, a freak, or a weirdo, condemned to never belong, condemned to be who and what they are forever.
So the whole "Love me for what I am and don't try to change me" is just a defense mechanism, a way to say I am who I am and that is fine by me, and I don't care who or what I hurt being me. If they can't deal with it that's there problem.
Christians have been known ton be Judgmental and have probably added to the mess that has started this movement. As Christians we are told to Judge not or lest we be judged and we are also told to judge sin as sin.
Conflicting messages all around of if we, Christians, are to judge and if so what to judge.
The best way to look at this is to look at what Christ did when he was on earth:
One Passage is the woman caught in adultery. The woman caught in adulatory who, by the Jewish Law, was yo be stoned is brought in front f Jesus. Instead of giving the okay, Jesus says something to the crowd, or rather mob, eager to have justice. Jesus says "Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at her." and the crowd leaves one by one starting with the older and wiser ones down to the young men till no one is left. Jesus says to he woman, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?” She answers, “No one, Lord.” Then Jesus says, “Neither do I condemn you; go, and from now on sin no more.” Wow Reconciliation and Grace and no condemnation.
The Pharisees and Religious Leaders: Jesus always did this through the power of parables. Best one to look at is the Parable of the Prodigal Son. Everyone knows this story but the older son is suppose to represent the Religious Leaders. Go back and reread the Passage. Jesus through the story Judges the religious leaders to come and rejoice in the lost that was found and to stop laboring for the wrong reasons. Come Join the Family Feast.
US: God spent all of the time post Gen 3 to redeem and reconcile us with Him. Back to the Garden State, the way it is supposed to be. That is why Christ dame, why He healed, Lived as man, died, and rose again. For Reconciliation of mankind, marred by the sin of their own hands, back to their God. Let me explain further in a Question, How Great is God that He not only Wipes the slate clean but throws it down to the Ocean Floor, Forgotten?
What did Christ Do he Judged them not to condemnation but to reconciliation... that's right Reconciliation!
As Christians, Little Christs, Children of God, Followers of Jesus, We are to Judge in Love to bring people to Reconciliation with God.
So Do Not Condemn, its not your Job or Place; Rather Go forth and Love and bring the lost back with you.
People always say, "Don't Judge ME! Don't attack me, my beliefs, thoughts, who I am!" because they do not like to be burned. No one like to put out themselves their true self out there only to be squashed by judgmental, sarcastic people. They do not like being judged because in reality they do not want to be condemned to be on the outside looking in, condemned to be a loser, a freak, or a weirdo, condemned to never belong, condemned to be who and what they are forever.
So the whole "Love me for what I am and don't try to change me" is just a defense mechanism, a way to say I am who I am and that is fine by me, and I don't care who or what I hurt being me. If they can't deal with it that's there problem.
Christians have been known ton be Judgmental and have probably added to the mess that has started this movement. As Christians we are told to Judge not or lest we be judged and we are also told to judge sin as sin.
Conflicting messages all around of if we, Christians, are to judge and if so what to judge.
The best way to look at this is to look at what Christ did when he was on earth:
One Passage is the woman caught in adultery. The woman caught in adulatory who, by the Jewish Law, was yo be stoned is brought in front f Jesus. Instead of giving the okay, Jesus says something to the crowd, or rather mob, eager to have justice. Jesus says "Let him who is without sin among you be the first to throw a stone at her." and the crowd leaves one by one starting with the older and wiser ones down to the young men till no one is left. Jesus says to he woman, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?” She answers, “No one, Lord.” Then Jesus says, “Neither do I condemn you; go, and from now on sin no more.” Wow Reconciliation and Grace and no condemnation.
The Pharisees and Religious Leaders: Jesus always did this through the power of parables. Best one to look at is the Parable of the Prodigal Son. Everyone knows this story but the older son is suppose to represent the Religious Leaders. Go back and reread the Passage. Jesus through the story Judges the religious leaders to come and rejoice in the lost that was found and to stop laboring for the wrong reasons. Come Join the Family Feast.
US: God spent all of the time post Gen 3 to redeem and reconcile us with Him. Back to the Garden State, the way it is supposed to be. That is why Christ dame, why He healed, Lived as man, died, and rose again. For Reconciliation of mankind, marred by the sin of their own hands, back to their God. Let me explain further in a Question, How Great is God that He not only Wipes the slate clean but throws it down to the Ocean Floor, Forgotten?
What did Christ Do he Judged them not to condemnation but to reconciliation... that's right Reconciliation!
As Christians, Little Christs, Children of God, Followers of Jesus, We are to Judge in Love to bring people to Reconciliation with God.
So Do Not Condemn, its not your Job or Place; Rather Go forth and Love and bring the lost back with you.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
A Series of Confession: I Need Christ More than I Admit
To have a full understanding of this post and the series it is apart of please read the Reason.
Its been a very long time since ive blogged and it upsets me... I am too busy... too independent... too dumb... and I need this as a stress release as well as a way to express my ideas and feelings and organize them.
Yet i need God more than i want to admit or let on even to myself. I Need him everyday and yet everyday i dont always act that way. I am independent dont trust anyone because they will fail me and i will have to work harder anyway. I just cannot sit still and relax. I become anxious. I have to do something... anything. Probably why I am stressed, always busy, and I cannot say no. Thus leading to sleep deprivation and hard time sleeping in general.
But any who i just expect my hard work to work out in the end. God gave ,me this talent, I use it, I do the work, ME, ME, ME, I, I, I... I don't see a line of black and white but rather a mist, a grey area where the two over lap and I assume that its my area to work in and take control and let my kingdom come. I have to learn when I pray, "Your Kingdom come" that automatically my kingdom has to go. I have a hard time doing this because I am an artist, a writer, a musician, an actor, a director... I love the arts. In these worlds you did the work, not God. God just was there to give you the talent...? Where does my hard work come into play?
Ok sorry about the rabbit trail... but I have been realizing that I am very emotional and my spiritual life is very much affected by this fact. I need God to be my refuge, my strength, my base line, my rock I cling to where ever I am spiritually, mentally, or emotionally. I need to be consistent in my walk... I need to not fake my way through this... I need not be fake with people... I need to be open... I need to be more dependent on my heavenly father who wants to give me good things, who loves me and who is perfect.
This is especially true when i am doing well "on my own" for pride goes before the fall and man do i fall hard... like the saying goes the bigger or higher they are the harder they fall. I just need to put back into practice my disciplines. Prayer is coming along and i have aids to help me when i don't know what to say, reading the bible and studying it well I'm working on it... these things take time and i'm short on it because its the end of the semester... lame excuse I know but its what i tell my self to fell better, or try to make myself feel better, failing at the moment btw. But I was able to go do the Lord's work Last night in the downtown section of a near by city just praying for the people of the city and talking with a couple and praying for them. Sowing seeds and just trying to show them love and life, eternal life. this was a wonderful experience, a wake-up call, and smack-upside-the-head all wrapped up into 5 hours of a friday night.... and i can't wait to do it again... well life keeps on ticking and a paper is waiting for me.... ugh but tonight is a movie night for a class hopefully it will be a good night.\
God Bless all of you and thank you for reading my thoughts i need to get out on paper.
But any who i just expect my hard work to work out in the end. God gave ,me this talent, I use it, I do the work, ME, ME, ME, I, I, I... I don't see a line of black and white but rather a mist, a grey area where the two over lap and I assume that its my area to work in and take control and let my kingdom come. I have to learn when I pray, "Your Kingdom come" that automatically my kingdom has to go. I have a hard time doing this because I am an artist, a writer, a musician, an actor, a director... I love the arts. In these worlds you did the work, not God. God just was there to give you the talent...? Where does my hard work come into play?
Ok sorry about the rabbit trail... but I have been realizing that I am very emotional and my spiritual life is very much affected by this fact. I need God to be my refuge, my strength, my base line, my rock I cling to where ever I am spiritually, mentally, or emotionally. I need to be consistent in my walk... I need to not fake my way through this... I need not be fake with people... I need to be open... I need to be more dependent on my heavenly father who wants to give me good things, who loves me and who is perfect.
This is especially true when i am doing well "on my own" for pride goes before the fall and man do i fall hard... like the saying goes the bigger or higher they are the harder they fall. I just need to put back into practice my disciplines. Prayer is coming along and i have aids to help me when i don't know what to say, reading the bible and studying it well I'm working on it... these things take time and i'm short on it because its the end of the semester... lame excuse I know but its what i tell my self to fell better, or try to make myself feel better, failing at the moment btw. But I was able to go do the Lord's work Last night in the downtown section of a near by city just praying for the people of the city and talking with a couple and praying for them. Sowing seeds and just trying to show them love and life, eternal life. this was a wonderful experience, a wake-up call, and smack-upside-the-head all wrapped up into 5 hours of a friday night.... and i can't wait to do it again... well life keeps on ticking and a paper is waiting for me.... ugh but tonight is a movie night for a class hopefully it will be a good night.\
God Bless all of you and thank you for reading my thoughts i need to get out on paper.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
A Series of Confessions: O me, O my...
This post is in a series of posts; to understand The Reason(s) for these posts please click the hyper link.
Well in spite of "not having anything to post at the moment" I will post something.: A reflection if you will and a prayer. I had finished reading a book two months ago called O me of little faith by Jason Boyett. Also, in chapel on my campus there was a great speaker/pastor. He had spoke on counting trials, pain, and our "thorn in the flesh" pure joy. These two sermons with the addition of the book have caused me to think again. To think about how we as Christians who grew up in the church could be so hypocritical, lukewarm, cynical, and outright doubtful of things. I am one of those Christians; I am a bit cynical; I have doubts at times; I struggle and fail. Yet dispute all of this I am still Loved by God, one of His children, and a Christian. I'll put it this way, I am a passive-aggressive rebellious child of God, who every once and a while needs a reminder of the fact of the matter is still a Christian. This is kinda one of the reasons I want a Tattoo, but until that day comes I have been writing on my wrists with pen: on the left it says "Forgiven" and on the right "Loved". This allows me to see them and be reminded constantly that I am Loved and Forgiven by God and I am his; especially during the "face-palm" situations I have. I need to remember that I am a sinner saved by grace or how my pastor put it today in church, "I am a recovering hypocrite."
So in light of that last paragraph over this past school year I have noticed some trends in my life and here are some of the findings. I find that when I am in a routine, getting enough sleep, low stress, and so on I tend to be a better person. I tend to deal better with people, and not be fake. I hate being fake, it makes me feel like I am an actor playing this character rather than a human being, living and breathing outside of the theater. It takes Shakespeare's quote "All the worlds a stage, And all the men and women merely players:" to a whole new level. I almost feel like the actor in me never turned off. I have also realized that when I don't get sleep and I am stressed, I don't spend time with God and if it is is mediocre at best. At this point I start depressed, cynical, and for lack of any other term, "Blarg." I need the very friends I push away and shut myself in a dark place away from others. I then feel alone and unwanted and unloved; I start to compare myself to who I want to be or to others and become a shell or a ghost of who I am and who I want to be.
I Deal with these feelings of depression, being unloved, alone, and unwanted even in a room full of friends or people I know. I am human, broken and afflicted living in a broken world and both it and I have been marred by sin. Yet there is Redemption and Reconciliation. I am not alone at all; I am not unwanted or unloved. For One can never be too high to not need salvation and love nor can one ever be too low to receive salvation and love.
Dear Father,
You are great and mighty, you have laid the foundations of the earth and are the "cosmic-glue" that holds everything together. You know my heart, my deeds, and my thoughts and yet you love me anyway. Thank you for that. Thank you for your Son and that he died but also raised again that I too could be raised up and be apart of your Kingdom. I Pray for all those in the south who have lost their homes, loved ones, and livelihood. I pray for the pastors, allow them to care for your sheep there as you would. Please let the Christian Community rise up among these hurting people and show them Your love and Your Kingdom. "Lord, may Your Kingdom come and your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven," and may I be apart of your work.
Love, ME
Well in spite of "not having anything to post at the moment" I will post something.: A reflection if you will and a prayer. I had finished reading a book two months ago called O me of little faith by Jason Boyett. Also, in chapel on my campus there was a great speaker/pastor. He had spoke on counting trials, pain, and our "thorn in the flesh" pure joy. These two sermons with the addition of the book have caused me to think again. To think about how we as Christians who grew up in the church could be so hypocritical, lukewarm, cynical, and outright doubtful of things. I am one of those Christians; I am a bit cynical; I have doubts at times; I struggle and fail. Yet dispute all of this I am still Loved by God, one of His children, and a Christian. I'll put it this way, I am a passive-aggressive rebellious child of God, who every once and a while needs a reminder of the fact of the matter is still a Christian. This is kinda one of the reasons I want a Tattoo, but until that day comes I have been writing on my wrists with pen: on the left it says "Forgiven" and on the right "Loved". This allows me to see them and be reminded constantly that I am Loved and Forgiven by God and I am his; especially during the "face-palm" situations I have. I need to remember that I am a sinner saved by grace or how my pastor put it today in church, "I am a recovering hypocrite."
So in light of that last paragraph over this past school year I have noticed some trends in my life and here are some of the findings. I find that when I am in a routine, getting enough sleep, low stress, and so on I tend to be a better person. I tend to deal better with people, and not be fake. I hate being fake, it makes me feel like I am an actor playing this character rather than a human being, living and breathing outside of the theater. It takes Shakespeare's quote "All the worlds a stage, And all the men and women merely players:" to a whole new level. I almost feel like the actor in me never turned off. I have also realized that when I don't get sleep and I am stressed, I don't spend time with God and if it is is mediocre at best. At this point I start depressed, cynical, and for lack of any other term, "Blarg." I need the very friends I push away and shut myself in a dark place away from others. I then feel alone and unwanted and unloved; I start to compare myself to who I want to be or to others and become a shell or a ghost of who I am and who I want to be.
I Deal with these feelings of depression, being unloved, alone, and unwanted even in a room full of friends or people I know. I am human, broken and afflicted living in a broken world and both it and I have been marred by sin. Yet there is Redemption and Reconciliation. I am not alone at all; I am not unwanted or unloved. For One can never be too high to not need salvation and love nor can one ever be too low to receive salvation and love.
Dear Father,
You are great and mighty, you have laid the foundations of the earth and are the "cosmic-glue" that holds everything together. You know my heart, my deeds, and my thoughts and yet you love me anyway. Thank you for that. Thank you for your Son and that he died but also raised again that I too could be raised up and be apart of your Kingdom. I Pray for all those in the south who have lost their homes, loved ones, and livelihood. I pray for the pastors, allow them to care for your sheep there as you would. Please let the Christian Community rise up among these hurting people and show them Your love and Your Kingdom. "Lord, may Your Kingdom come and your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven," and may I be apart of your work.
Love, ME
Sunday, February 27, 2011
A Series of Confessions: The Reason
This Past year I have learned a lot about myself; how i relate to myself, others and God. I have also learned about being real with people. These next series of posts I am going to be confessions of self, religion, thoughts, actions, and so on. These may dig up hard memories but part of living is acknowledging hurts and sharing them. I am striving to be real, and real those around me. This is a step towards it. I am done with Facades and being fake. I am sick of.... just a lot of things and I need to express them. So the reason I started this blog was to put my thoughts out there; my confessions, convictions and contemplations. Here is a series of them that will just be that, nothing more or less. These are confessions of doubt and faith, love and hate and so on all based on the conviction of being real rather than an actor on a stage. This will also give me the opportunity to contemplate things I have dealt with, am dealing with, and stuff I buried deep or put on the back burner. These post will be very "me-centered" and will be me preaching to myself. Therefore I apologize. Happy Days and God Bless you till we "meet" again on this blog to have a "conversation."
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Love, Life, and Lost in a Land
Love life and Lost in a Land... it kinda sound like a book title, i would read a book with this title but hey to my knowledge this is just how to explain the happenings of my brain:
Love:
Well this month is the "month of love" with Valentine's day in it and all. all the flower companies, card companies, chocolate companies, and stuffed animal companies all put out red, white and pink things that are overpriced to buy so you tell someone you love them. It is a good idea but shouldn't we be doing this everyday, the loving on people and caring about them not just buying things for them? Why most one day be celebrated in honor of Love? Love should be celebrated everyday, hour and minute you and I am alive. Love is one human emotion that is very hard to explain because in different contexts the word has a different context. The Greeks actually have four words our one word of Love. and i really want to stay away from all the cliché sayings like "what the world need now is love, sweet love," "give a little bit of your love...," or "All you need is Love" but we all need love, real love. Once again may I recite just have to say is LOVE: Love God, Love Others. (Matt. 22:34-40)
Life:
Life is full of decisions and forks in the road.unfortunately the road moves under you whether or not you choose to move it moves for you. So as you move done the road be proactive in life, take life by the horns. Donald Miller wrote in A Million Miles in a Thousand Years, “Fear is a manipulative emotion that can trick us into living a boring life.” Do not let fear or indecisiveness rule your life. Go live in God's creation and do something, anything, with in reason, that is pleasing to God. Make a decision, learn from it, rinse, lather and then repeat. Please do not sit on your but and watch the world, along with your world go by. Life is what you make of it but also remember that you have to rely on Him to make it through it.
Lost in a Land:
Technically its a flatland named Ohio. Last week I felt moody like a girl which was, mainly due to sleep deprivation I had. But right now I am dealing with some major issues, choices, and thoughts in my head right now. Depending on what happens this semester is what will be happening for the rest of my life. Someone said, this past summer, that this year would help define who I am for the rest of my life and thus far the statement has held true. I need to make some tough decisions in the next couple of weeks, Right now I am keeping my options open and trying to live out the two principles I laid out early in the post the "Love God , Love Others" idea and the Live life and just do something. Its hard and I am Trying which is all I can do. I am a Human Forgiven and Saved by Grace, trying and striving to Live like Christ.
Love:
Well this month is the "month of love" with Valentine's day in it and all. all the flower companies, card companies, chocolate companies, and stuffed animal companies all put out red, white and pink things that are overpriced to buy so you tell someone you love them. It is a good idea but shouldn't we be doing this everyday, the loving on people and caring about them not just buying things for them? Why most one day be celebrated in honor of Love? Love should be celebrated everyday, hour and minute you and I am alive. Love is one human emotion that is very hard to explain because in different contexts the word has a different context. The Greeks actually have four words our one word of Love. and i really want to stay away from all the cliché sayings like "what the world need now is love, sweet love," "give a little bit of your love...," or "All you need is Love" but we all need love, real love. Once again may I recite just have to say is LOVE: Love God, Love Others. (Matt. 22:34-40)
Life:
Life is full of decisions and forks in the road.unfortunately the road moves under you whether or not you choose to move it moves for you. So as you move done the road be proactive in life, take life by the horns. Donald Miller wrote in A Million Miles in a Thousand Years, “Fear is a manipulative emotion that can trick us into living a boring life.” Do not let fear or indecisiveness rule your life. Go live in God's creation and do something, anything, with in reason, that is pleasing to God. Make a decision, learn from it, rinse, lather and then repeat. Please do not sit on your but and watch the world, along with your world go by. Life is what you make of it but also remember that you have to rely on Him to make it through it.
Lost in a Land:
Technically its a flatland named Ohio. Last week I felt moody like a girl which was, mainly due to sleep deprivation I had. But right now I am dealing with some major issues, choices, and thoughts in my head right now. Depending on what happens this semester is what will be happening for the rest of my life. Someone said, this past summer, that this year would help define who I am for the rest of my life and thus far the statement has held true. I need to make some tough decisions in the next couple of weeks, Right now I am keeping my options open and trying to live out the two principles I laid out early in the post the "Love God , Love Others" idea and the Live life and just do something. Its hard and I am Trying which is all I can do. I am a Human Forgiven and Saved by Grace, trying and striving to Live like Christ.
Saturday, January 29, 2011
A Million Miles, A Cup of Coffee, and A Conversation Continued
Let start by apologizing for the length of the post, all the hyper links, and this post being about my ideas and thoughts getting on "paper". But a lot has happened over the past week, and most if not all was good. I finished this wonderful book by Donald Miller called A Million Miles In A Thousand Years: What I Learned While Editing My Life. This Book challenged me and also made me realize things in life. The book talks about a "good story" and that fear hold us back from living out a good story. We also know, and he point out, that we as humans never hit a full climax with a resolution; we have mini-climaxes in our story building up to another story in our life, but always the story moves forward. I want to live a good story so when the credits role people remember me and have good things to say. But I also have to remember that I am just an extra/supporting role charter in the grand scheme of things, in the story of this world. My life is a mini-series i guess and the rest of the movie is History. So I cannot point out my 10secs in the movie and say its about me; no it not about me or you its about Love, God and His Love.
Which reminds me that I also had coffee with the Dean of Student Life Programs on Wednesday Right after having Lunch with my "mentee" that I have. With my mentee we talked about what was going on in our lives and i just gave some ideas and my perspective on things. Then like I said I had coffee, and we talked about books, what was happening on campus and just different things in life. We talked about Donald Miller, and his books, and the end of our time He gave me a book entitled O me of little faith by Jason Boyett which is signed by the author. That same day My Dorm had the Continuation of the conversation we started in MAN WEEK. We watched a clip of a very Blunt preacher talking about misconceptions of what it means to be a Man and the extremes that are taken. He Talked about these two extremes: the wimps and the chauvinist. The scary part is I see this in men and boys I live with, work with and am around where ever I go. In addition to all this I started a Book which I am half way done called The Masculine Mandate: God's Calling to Men. So I have had a lot on my mind in addition to all the homework and work I have had. Its exhausting but i am still going... i'm chugging along and the show is almost over. A lot happens in a short time here at college and I have thoughts, friends hurts, and my my own emotions or lack there of at times.
I guess what I am doing here is pointing out some thoughts I have to myself and trying to make sense of it all. so here is my conclusions thus far: I am God's representative to earth trying to live with in the call of God for my life (to work and keep) and his commandments (to Love God... Love Others and Go forth and make disciples). In doing so and actually doing something in light of that I will live a "good story" as I try to constantly walk "away from the person I was a moment ago."
I just am having a hard time with this but I am trying... I am slowly allowing change, for the better, to happen in my life influence from people I respect into my life and just take each day as a way to grow.
Which reminds me that I also had coffee with the Dean of Student Life Programs on Wednesday Right after having Lunch with my "mentee" that I have. With my mentee we talked about what was going on in our lives and i just gave some ideas and my perspective on things. Then like I said I had coffee, and we talked about books, what was happening on campus and just different things in life. We talked about Donald Miller, and his books, and the end of our time He gave me a book entitled O me of little faith by Jason Boyett which is signed by the author. That same day My Dorm had the Continuation of the conversation we started in MAN WEEK. We watched a clip of a very Blunt preacher talking about misconceptions of what it means to be a Man and the extremes that are taken. He Talked about these two extremes: the wimps and the chauvinist. The scary part is I see this in men and boys I live with, work with and am around where ever I go. In addition to all this I started a Book which I am half way done called The Masculine Mandate: God's Calling to Men. So I have had a lot on my mind in addition to all the homework and work I have had. Its exhausting but i am still going... i'm chugging along and the show is almost over. A lot happens in a short time here at college and I have thoughts, friends hurts, and my my own emotions or lack there of at times.
I guess what I am doing here is pointing out some thoughts I have to myself and trying to make sense of it all. so here is my conclusions thus far: I am God's representative to earth trying to live with in the call of God for my life (to work and keep) and his commandments (to Love God... Love Others and Go forth and make disciples). In doing so and actually doing something in light of that I will live a "good story" as I try to constantly walk "away from the person I was a moment ago."
I just am having a hard time with this but I am trying... I am slowly allowing change, for the better, to happen in my life influence from people I respect into my life and just take each day as a way to grow.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
The Limelight of Backstage
Being in the performing arts (majoring in music and minoring in theatre) I know the joys of being up on stage in the limelight. So since I was little I liked being the center of attention and the limelight was one way to be the center, in everyone's view, getting attention. And I have to admit that i still do love that limelight, we all do. We want some attention, some more than others, but we all want it. I wanted to grow up and be in show biz, either in Hollywood or on Broadway. Hey, a guy can have dreams, mine were being an actor.
But as time has gone on I have seen and been apart of the behind the scenes stuff; the stuff that makes the show actually go on. Not only in the performing arts but also in life. Just helping setting up, tearing down, cleaning up and just helping in easy ways to make whatever happened, will happen, or happening run smoothly. I have enjoyed helping whenever however possible. Its great seeing something come together by the hands of others as well as your own and getting little to no credit.
I enjoy helping others and caring for them; in my dorm i am a jack of many trades. I am the masseuse, mom, dad, confidant, advice giver, guru, shoulder to lean on, hear to listen, and whatever else is needed. No i am not the RA or anything i am just wanting to be helpful.
OK, so this started off as why you should not always take the limelight of center stage and has ended up with me taking center stage on backstage stuff... which goes to show we all like to be recognized and like being center of attention. Thus proving its harder than you think, and sometimes you just i don't know are selfish.
This post is very much about me and i guess i have more to work on in my life but I have been learning that sometimes doing work and not getting credit or doing work backstage is better...
But as time has gone on I have seen and been apart of the behind the scenes stuff; the stuff that makes the show actually go on. Not only in the performing arts but also in life. Just helping setting up, tearing down, cleaning up and just helping in easy ways to make whatever happened, will happen, or happening run smoothly. I have enjoyed helping whenever however possible. Its great seeing something come together by the hands of others as well as your own and getting little to no credit.
I enjoy helping others and caring for them; in my dorm i am a jack of many trades. I am the masseuse, mom, dad, confidant, advice giver, guru, shoulder to lean on, hear to listen, and whatever else is needed. No i am not the RA or anything i am just wanting to be helpful.
OK, so this started off as why you should not always take the limelight of center stage and has ended up with me taking center stage on backstage stuff... which goes to show we all like to be recognized and like being center of attention. Thus proving its harder than you think, and sometimes you just i don't know are selfish.
This post is very much about me and i guess i have more to work on in my life but I have been learning that sometimes doing work and not getting credit or doing work backstage is better...
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Boxing Day: A Reflection
"Take it all down, Christmas is overWell Christmas was yesterday and we have made it through another year, survived the crazy shopping, driving, eating, baking, sleeping or lack of that, and for all the college student and I Finals.....
But do not despair, but rather be glad
We had a good year, now let's have another
Remembering all the good times that we had
Oh no more lights glistening
No more carols to sing
But Christmas, it makes way for spring
Though hearts of man are bitter in weather
As cold as the snow that falls from above
But just for one day we all came together
We showed the whole world that we know how to love
Oh no more lights glistening
No more carols to sing
Oh remember that Christmas, it makes way for spring" -Relient K
So what have we learned, what have we done this past year? It has been 365 days since last year's Christmas, and what have we changed in ourselves, the people around us and the world?
Its a sobering thing watching the news of the past year... we had the Gulf incident, the Winter Olympics, Hatti's Earthquake, and all the marriages, divorces and deaths of celebrities. Its also sobering looking back on what has happened in my own life in the past year, I have laughed, cried, grew, stumbled, was depressed, took life by the horns and fell to the wayside. I have grown so much but I have so much more to learn...
One of my Favorite quotes is "I want to keep walking away from the person I was a moment ago... " -Donald Miller, and That is my Goal in life but I want to add to it by saying, "I want to keep walking away from the person I was a moment ago..." and moving closer to the Savior of my soul. I want to do this as I continue to try to live out the Greatest Commandment: "Love God... Love Others." And this is my New Years Wish, Resolution, thought, Hope, Whatever, to live out what I just Wrote.
I Plan to do it through:
- Journaling (both personally and the Bible)
- Prayer
- Fellowship with Other Believers
- Prayer
- Mentors
- Living and Learning
Let me Leave you with this from Relient K's I Celebrate the Day for this is exactly how I feel writing this blog post; Till next Year:
"And with this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let You know how much You've touched my life
Because here is where You're finding me, in the exact same place as New Year's eve
And from a lack of my persistency
We're less than half as close as I want to be..." -Relient K
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Where is the manual for this?
A lot of seniors are now standing at a crossroad in their life. They are realizing that they will graduate in a semesters time and then its off to the "Real World;" whether it be a job, armed forces, or grad school they are deciding what is the next step in life.
Life is full of choices, situations, challenges, work, family, friends, school, and other stuff. So where is the manual for it? Everything else pretty much comes with some form of instructions or users manual, whether we read it or not its there. Why doesn't a baby come with a owner's manual? Why don't we get book called "The Guide to Your Life" when we hit high school? Why don't we get help in making these tough life decisions?
At times I feel like going, "Hey God some Help here... Maybe you can do that whole writing on the wall thing again or maybe you can call text or Facebook me what I'm suppose to do here." I know that the Bible is the manual to life, but its more like a general guide to life, a way to live it not a "on December 16th ask out so and so and this will lead to marriage, and avoid you know who at all costs they are a bad influence; Or you will be doing this for your life so make sure you do x, y, and z and apply to here for your career." No instead of a nice map of a direct route through life we have a field guide and a compass, the Bible and The Holy Spirit.
Most of us have felt this way before, calling out to God saying, "OK God what your plan for my Life send me a sign, show me Your Will for my Life." But here is the Thing, God's will is for us to fulfill the greatest commandment and the Great Commission; We are to live like Christ and strive to. As long as we are doing that we are living with in the will of God. We are not going to get a fleece, a dream, a sign or signal from on what direction to take. So rather than praying for God to reveal this secret will for our lives, lets pray for wisdom to make the right, beneficial, and wholesome decisions at all times and to choose the best one when we are faced with two equally appropriate choices.
So as much as I would like to have God say each morning, "Good morning, Dave. Today I have willed for your Life this." Well maybe not every morning say that (but it would be helpful),it ain't going to happen! So now why I have said this. I am at a crossroad in my own life. I need to decide about, summer jobs, senior year, maybe switching my major, what to do after graduation, and well life on a day to day basis. I sat down to figure this all out and it was overwhelming... I know what I would like to do and what would actually be possible. I want to Teach, or something like that because i want to help shape the future through the shaping of lives. I also, want to continuously learn; I want to get at this point, call me crazy, at least three master degrees:
Life is full of choices, situations, challenges, work, family, friends, school, and other stuff. So where is the manual for it? Everything else pretty much comes with some form of instructions or users manual, whether we read it or not its there. Why doesn't a baby come with a owner's manual? Why don't we get book called "The Guide to Your Life" when we hit high school? Why don't we get help in making these tough life decisions?
At times I feel like going, "Hey God some Help here... Maybe you can do that whole writing on the wall thing again or maybe you can call text or Facebook me what I'm suppose to do here." I know that the Bible is the manual to life, but its more like a general guide to life, a way to live it not a "on December 16th ask out so and so and this will lead to marriage, and avoid you know who at all costs they are a bad influence; Or you will be doing this for your life so make sure you do x, y, and z and apply to here for your career." No instead of a nice map of a direct route through life we have a field guide and a compass, the Bible and The Holy Spirit.
Most of us have felt this way before, calling out to God saying, "OK God what your plan for my Life send me a sign, show me Your Will for my Life." But here is the Thing, God's will is for us to fulfill the greatest commandment and the Great Commission; We are to live like Christ and strive to. As long as we are doing that we are living with in the will of God. We are not going to get a fleece, a dream, a sign or signal from on what direction to take. So rather than praying for God to reveal this secret will for our lives, lets pray for wisdom to make the right, beneficial, and wholesome decisions at all times and to choose the best one when we are faced with two equally appropriate choices.
So as much as I would like to have God say each morning, "Good morning, Dave. Today I have willed for your Life this." Well maybe not every morning say that (but it would be helpful),it ain't going to happen! So now why I have said this. I am at a crossroad in my own life. I need to decide about, summer jobs, senior year, maybe switching my major, what to do after graduation, and well life on a day to day basis. I sat down to figure this all out and it was overwhelming... I know what I would like to do and what would actually be possible. I want to Teach, or something like that because i want to help shape the future through the shaping of lives. I also, want to continuously learn; I want to get at this point, call me crazy, at least three master degrees:
- One in music (theory or musicology),music ed, and/or education
- One in Theatre
- One from a Seminary either an M. Div and/or Th.M.
Wow three Totally different thing but all things I am interested in. So here's the plan, Marry someone rich and do what I want... Plan B well thats still in the works at the moment but no matter what I have my Rock to cling to and He will always be there for me. One of the books on my Reading list isJust Do Something: How to Make a Decision Without Dreams, Visions, Fleeces, Open Doors, Random Bible Verses, Casting Lots, Liver Shivers, Writing in the Sky, etc.by Kevin DeYoung. Everyone who I've talked to who has read it says it is worth while. So I will suggest a book I haven't read yet... why because I CAN, and I just did.
Musings and The Radio in My Head
Today in church this song of all songs popped into my head, it was random but the lyrics to the chorus fit exactly how I was feeling and fit what the message was saying. This is who I see myself as at times in my life and walk; The song was Katy Perry's "Hot N Cold"; the chorus is as follows:
This being said I have come to realize, accept, and/or acknowledge that this also effects my faith and daily walk with Him who created and saved me. I am very easily swayed or distracted from my personal walk. This actually causes a vicious cycle of life for me. I know my days are infinitely better if I am in communion with God and am fully relying on Him; If I am not in communion with Him, through prayer, scripture reading, and other spiritual disciplines, I end up becoming emotional, in a bad way. I become callused, hurt, depressed, angry, or some other emotion, which leads me not to my knees but away from that and towards some destructive activity, thoughts, or other and brings me back to the place I have left and hadn't wanted to return to which starts those emotions again. Then cycle starts over and over again but in a downward spiral pattern.
How sad it is. I will be on Fire for the Lord and slowly let it fade to almost nothing, then being kicked in the butt or smacked upside the head and change and to let the fire grow to a blaze again only to allow it to fade. It all starts with how much sleep and the quality of it, homework, friends, stress, and other stuff taking priority over what really matters; it's quite sad actually.
In Church the Pastor quoted someone in the congregation; they stated, "...We didn't invite Christ into our lives but He invited us into His life." We need to remember that if we think we invited Him into our lives like we do to our friends, jobs, and stuff, He become just becomes one of the many things we have invited into our lives. He becomes just another thing among a bunch of stuff. We become wishy washy and can be discouraged by life; we go back to where we came from. But if in spite of this we press on, and cling to Christ we will move forward.
So I guess I just rambled on about my thoughts and they probably don't make much sense but hey my mind doesn't always make sense... but I am going to try to press on and with my new view of who I am and in light of what I said I will leave you with this, "Pressing On" by Relient K.
"Cause you're hot then you're coldI have come to realize, no come to accept and acknowledge that I am very much controlled by my emotions and the circumstances around me. I sometimes feel very emotional and those emotions, whether good or bad, control me; that is until I realize how ridiculous I am being.
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white...
(you) You don't really want to stay, no
(but you) But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down"
This being said I have come to realize, accept, and/or acknowledge that this also effects my faith and daily walk with Him who created and saved me. I am very easily swayed or distracted from my personal walk. This actually causes a vicious cycle of life for me. I know my days are infinitely better if I am in communion with God and am fully relying on Him; If I am not in communion with Him, through prayer, scripture reading, and other spiritual disciplines, I end up becoming emotional, in a bad way. I become callused, hurt, depressed, angry, or some other emotion, which leads me not to my knees but away from that and towards some destructive activity, thoughts, or other and brings me back to the place I have left and hadn't wanted to return to which starts those emotions again. Then cycle starts over and over again but in a downward spiral pattern.
How sad it is. I will be on Fire for the Lord and slowly let it fade to almost nothing, then being kicked in the butt or smacked upside the head and change and to let the fire grow to a blaze again only to allow it to fade. It all starts with how much sleep and the quality of it, homework, friends, stress, and other stuff taking priority over what really matters; it's quite sad actually.
In Church the Pastor quoted someone in the congregation; they stated, "...We didn't invite Christ into our lives but He invited us into His life." We need to remember that if we think we invited Him into our lives like we do to our friends, jobs, and stuff, He become just becomes one of the many things we have invited into our lives. He becomes just another thing among a bunch of stuff. We become wishy washy and can be discouraged by life; we go back to where we came from. But if in spite of this we press on, and cling to Christ we will move forward.
So I guess I just rambled on about my thoughts and they probably don't make much sense but hey my mind doesn't always make sense... but I am going to try to press on and with my new view of who I am and in light of what I said I will leave you with this, "Pressing On" by Relient K.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
The Day of Firsts
Today is the First of December, The First Snow Fall on Campus, and the First Night of Hanukkah; What a wonderful Joyous day.
I know I've been very "emo" in my posts, but today is a new day, a new post, and another start to trying to be more like Christ. today in Chapel we had a day of worship, and as I was singing, I starting to actually worship, break down, and call out to my Savior. This is the first time I've done this a while and doing so I realized something. I realized that I need a length of time to just be silent and be with God an extended bit of time. A time to just worship, confess, pray, and sit at his feet. The more I learn about myself the less I like who I am; I am needy, self-adsorbed, sinful, and some many other things; Yet God still loves me.
I look around at other believers around me, both older and younger in the faith, and see their hearts on fire for God, how I long for that. I have been churched to the point of being a hypocrite, I am a modern day Pharisee; I am a part of the modern synagogue, saying come to me for God and I'll tell to do X, Y, and Z and not A, B, and C while I am doing A, B, and C. I want to want to live out what I believe, I want to be the hands and feet of Christ.
Which reminds me of a quote a friend posted on Facebook today:
Dear God,
Thank you so much for your love and mercy and how you love us even in our sin. May I be moving forward, moving towards you and not backtracking; moving from my old self and the Pharisee I was and am now. Please Lord fill me, use me, and allow me to be used to glorify you by doing your work.
Love,
Me
I know I've been very "emo" in my posts, but today is a new day, a new post, and another start to trying to be more like Christ. today in Chapel we had a day of worship, and as I was singing, I starting to actually worship, break down, and call out to my Savior. This is the first time I've done this a while and doing so I realized something. I realized that I need a length of time to just be silent and be with God an extended bit of time. A time to just worship, confess, pray, and sit at his feet. The more I learn about myself the less I like who I am; I am needy, self-adsorbed, sinful, and some many other things; Yet God still loves me.
I look around at other believers around me, both older and younger in the faith, and see their hearts on fire for God, how I long for that. I have been churched to the point of being a hypocrite, I am a modern day Pharisee; I am a part of the modern synagogue, saying come to me for God and I'll tell to do X, Y, and Z and not A, B, and C while I am doing A, B, and C. I want to want to live out what I believe, I want to be the hands and feet of Christ.
Which reminds me of a quote a friend posted on Facebook today:
I know this is an over kill but it reminds us we are all sinners and cannot think ourselves better than those "tax collectors" and "Gentiles". We are just like them in the fact we are sinners; we just have been given God's Grace and we can impart share some with the tax collectors and gentiles in our life."If the church gets overrun with homosexuals, that would be terrific. They can take their place in the pews right next to the liars, gossips, and materialists."- Ed Dobson
Dear God,
Thank you so much for your love and mercy and how you love us even in our sin. May I be moving forward, moving towards you and not backtracking; moving from my old self and the Pharisee I was and am now. Please Lord fill me, use me, and allow me to be used to glorify you by doing your work.
Love,
Me
Monday, April 5, 2010
Facades...
The Definition:
The Confession:
I am guilty of this wearing a mask or a facade. We all are. Its just part of who we are, we show what we want and hide behind it. We are a product of Western Society and the Victorian Age, all about appearances and moving ahead in the social ladder, rather than being real or even human. We put on our masks and act, like hypocrites. We actually get the word hypocrite from the Greek word for actors, who wore masks while acting. We hide behind our masks and don't show who were we truly are because we believe if people saw us for who we really are they would run, disown, laugh, and abandon us. We dare not show others the us that we only see behind locked doors, in the protection of the dark and the night.We are ugly and broken and NO ONE in their right mind would ever want to be around me and all this ugly baggage we carry.
The Conviction:
I feel we need to not fake it but be real especially those we love, like friends, family, and significant others. We need to be vulnerable, which is easier said than done. For all those who have been burned while being vulnerable, knows what I am saying, and it is hard you don't want to play with this fire again, and i understand. I am not saying we need to bare all to everyone, show everyone all the skeletons in the closet, but rather share them with those you love and those who love you back. With everyone else be real, be you, not your mask or one of your many masks. Share your true thoughts, feeling, show your True Colors. Those who are True Friends will love on you and be there through it all.
The Contemplation:
This whole time I have been preaching to the choir, and myself. I am an actor, both on and off stage. I am a hypocrite and am working on being real. For I do not want the mask to become me or me to become the mask; I want to be me!We all sometimes think we are Monsters, as the Skillet Song "Monster" states. I just sometimes dream and wonder what the world would be like if we did not just follow this facade and were real and truthful, what the world would look like. If we were real and loved everyone for who they are we would live in a different world, a better world.
I want to leave you with this song and its lyrics. Think about what its saying. Is it True? Is it True of You, Society as a Whole, The World?
- a false, superficial, or artificial appearance or effect (merriam-webster.com)
- a superficial appearance or illusion of something (dictionary.com)
The Confession:
I am guilty of this wearing a mask or a facade. We all are. Its just part of who we are, we show what we want and hide behind it. We are a product of Western Society and the Victorian Age, all about appearances and moving ahead in the social ladder, rather than being real or even human. We put on our masks and act, like hypocrites. We actually get the word hypocrite from the Greek word for actors, who wore masks while acting. We hide behind our masks and don't show who were we truly are because we believe if people saw us for who we really are they would run, disown, laugh, and abandon us. We dare not show others the us that we only see behind locked doors, in the protection of the dark and the night.We are ugly and broken and NO ONE in their right mind would ever want to be around me and all this ugly baggage we carry.
The Conviction:
I feel we need to not fake it but be real especially those we love, like friends, family, and significant others. We need to be vulnerable, which is easier said than done. For all those who have been burned while being vulnerable, knows what I am saying, and it is hard you don't want to play with this fire again, and i understand. I am not saying we need to bare all to everyone, show everyone all the skeletons in the closet, but rather share them with those you love and those who love you back. With everyone else be real, be you, not your mask or one of your many masks. Share your true thoughts, feeling, show your True Colors. Those who are True Friends will love on you and be there through it all.
The Contemplation:
This whole time I have been preaching to the choir, and myself. I am an actor, both on and off stage. I am a hypocrite and am working on being real. For I do not want the mask to become me or me to become the mask; I want to be me!We all sometimes think we are Monsters, as the Skillet Song "Monster" states. I just sometimes dream and wonder what the world would be like if we did not just follow this facade and were real and truthful, what the world would look like. If we were real and loved everyone for who they are we would live in a different world, a better world.
I want to leave you with this song and its lyrics. Think about what its saying. Is it True? Is it True of You, Society as a Whole, The World?
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